I am like so hatin the hole in my chest that opens up every fuckin time im thinkin of
you. and all the times.. the good times, the bad times.. all the crap i was put thru
but still learned from it and helped me become a better person.
i will never understand why certain things had 2 happen or why i was even confronted
w/ at all, but there is a reason for it and maybe im better off not knowing that
reason but just believing there is one. i just hate that we have to be seperated from
the ones we love and be around so many ppl we dont even care about. why is that?
and i hate that missin someone, or a place, or whatever it may be, is so outrageous
and heartbreakin but still, we like to get lost in it cuz it gives us that special feeling that
just nostalgia or bein melancholic can give us. it gives us the warmth we only
feel when bein around certain people and the certainty of being reunited any time
soon. i cant say why missing someone can be the worst but strongest feeling in the world.
it just is.
u know in december 09 i sat back and i was thinkin, that w/ this year
ending soon, i am gonna leave it all behind. all the nostalgic moments,
all the crying. everything. but i can't. and this is not a decision u can make
within a day or even a minute. we are not mighty enough to control
our feelings.. or leave stuff behind, that still bothers us. we need to feel
moody sometimes, to work up all the bad memories and things we went thru.
it is not about bein strong, cuz everyone has his own weak moments
and the most important thing to accept is, that we NEED them. we need them to grow
stronger and to build up our personality. THAT is the only reason we all are put
into difficult situations every now and then ... that is why.
'nite.
you. and all the times.. the good times, the bad times.. all the crap i was put thru
but still learned from it and helped me become a better person.
i will never understand why certain things had 2 happen or why i was even confronted
w/ at all, but there is a reason for it and maybe im better off not knowing that
reason but just believing there is one. i just hate that we have to be seperated from
the ones we love and be around so many ppl we dont even care about. why is that?
and i hate that missin someone, or a place, or whatever it may be, is so outrageous
and heartbreakin but still, we like to get lost in it cuz it gives us that special feeling that
just nostalgia or bein melancholic can give us. it gives us the warmth we only
feel when bein around certain people and the certainty of being reunited any time
soon. i cant say why missing someone can be the worst but strongest feeling in the world.
it just is.
u know in december 09 i sat back and i was thinkin, that w/ this year
ending soon, i am gonna leave it all behind. all the nostalgic moments,
all the crying. everything. but i can't. and this is not a decision u can make
within a day or even a minute. we are not mighty enough to control
our feelings.. or leave stuff behind, that still bothers us. we need to feel
moody sometimes, to work up all the bad memories and things we went thru.
it is not about bein strong, cuz everyone has his own weak moments
and the most important thing to accept is, that we NEED them. we need them to grow
stronger and to build up our personality. THAT is the only reason we all are put
into difficult situations every now and then ... that is why.
'nite.
(im falle, dass mein alter blog nicht mehr lange weiterlebt.)
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